Eight months of Life without a job

Tuesday, June 23, 2009
When i woke up every day. i use to think, why i left my job?, and every day i got new new reasons...its about eight months before, one early morning i decided to quit my job without discussing plus and minus ...i got some reasons to quit my job, but one very big reason i want to highlight here is ,the un confidence imposed on me!. again the" un confidence imposed or manipulated on me" it means even in bad circumstances also i never be a nihilist or pessimist but time and situation made me a pessimist.it took six hard months to get my confidence back! ..any way i don't want to talk much about that..if i do so, peoples will simply say i don't know business moralities and i am too young to speak about that! .i have to write a separate post for that, to clear the miss understandings... always i use to say "peoples leave leaders not the party"..(making silence myself).I was totally unaware about my position when i left my job. that makes me to be idle for a long time.also the global meltdown and subsequents in the markets extended my job hunting..."8 months" a big chunk of time,sending resumes and wondering why no one responds. in the first month itself i went nuts :(. then i decided, these times should be memorable with good stories and i acted so.

Many things encouraged me to think mature in this 8 month gap, especially education.Education is the key to think good,and work smart. The good thing is i attended two semesters and cleared in this gap..( since the gap i cleared all the papers? nah i am a born genius).coming to the point, the concern of this post is to simply share my eight months of life with unemployment..


Doing meaningful :I spend time creating projects for myself and executing on them. This very much worked mentally because when doing something meaningful with my time it keeps my spirits up.doing simple projects ,some freelancing ,even some job orders,volunteering at my friend’s company for a couple of hours a day,drafting civil drawings,its all ended up looking like a job on my resume .

Blogging: started a blog and blogging in it..u know? ,blogging is the best way to develop your language skills.talking is very easy but writing is totally opp .my father use to write daily happenings.i don't know whether it initiates the writing habit or not and of course the leverage fact is, i got more time that people don't have while in jobs.

understanding politics:my room is filled with politicians, even two of them are from big parties.every night they will discuss state level issues.earlier i use to say politics is a shit, and i don't have anything with that.later i understand that life and politics cannot be separated.initially, talking the sensitive issues behind the politics makes me frustrated. after some level that eradicates my silly philosophies and guided me to take the right decisions.now the understandings extended up to atheism.this unemployed days really gave me break to think of myself in the society and to take actions.

Upgrading myself :what is up gradation? ,when i joined my engineering i thought its an up gradation.no its not like that , it really means that its a process of applying the effectiveness to get the efficiency in the present situation .the beauty here is, i haven't think these things when i was in job. but these times clearly preached me and also it dosent means that my previous job did nothing.

money value:i was a spendthrift now i am fortune finder..as like everything the poverty in the tough times changed me.


Dieting : Believe me a healthy diet will keep your tension and anxiety less..i feel the difference..there are much to say ...but i am not such a good writer.

finally
i am ending, with this saying “If you live with a problem long enough, it could eventually become a blessing.”yes , if i have a another set back also, these experiences would lift me again..

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Anonymous said...

dear vijay,
mmm....nice to see this page.
the way u narrated is nice.
and....ur +ve attitude that u have utilized the gap...(actually it's not a gap, everthing happens for a reason). keep going....all the best

Bubesh R.

Anonymous said...

You can't have a better tomorrow if you are thinking about yesterday all the time

Unknown said...

Time goes by so fast, people go in and out of your life. You must never miss the opportunity to tell these people how much they mean to you

vijayprasanna said...

thanks all..

to anon..
even we can say like this we cant have a better tomorrow if we do not realize what we r in the present day..

Anonymous said...

Vijay - I am now an 8 month unemployee. It is hard sometimes to think that there is a better tomorrow with such an uphill battle to contend with. My current job search efforts have been about quality vs. quantity and I find that thus far, neither of the two job search/application strategies have paid off. I believe that what anonymous stated, "You can't have a better tomorrow if you are thinking about yesterday all the time." In my case, it is not about yesterday...it is much more of the future concerning a marriage and 3 little ones. To re-trace my past employment situation, I went through a very rough time when I seemed to have lost quite a bit of confidence. I also had sprouted some pretty poor health conditions. Stess had taken control of my life thus zapping me from a confident standing. Any success in my previous job was pawned off on other poeple in that I no longer wanted and attention and I resorted to being more isolated. Also, the organization was laying people off at a steady pace and the morality of the organization as well as the department I was employed within had diminished. People were now out to slice throats in order to insulate themselves from being affected by corporate downsizing. From all this occurring and a newborn on the horizon, my stress level started to consume me. I ended up paying visit to our family practitioner of whom prescribed some strong antidepressants. Also, I had contracted some type of skin disease of which was attributed to stress. The one thing that stood out to me while paying visit to the Dr. was the question she had asked, "What the H E double hockey sticks are you doing to yourself?" "Do you want to die?" I was so strung out on depression that I had no clue and the depression was now a normal way of life for me. I was so used to it I did not have the ability to recognize that there was something very wrong. With the large red spots(skin disease) growing on my face and various parts of the body; my inability to think straight; I am in bout with stress and severe depression. Well, without the attributes in my life associated with my prior employment situation, I am a grateful and much healed person that is still in defeat for I haven't landed a job, I have have my life back and have been able to focus more on my Family...being with them and improving upon the most important part of my life. Prior to this now 8 months of unemployment, life in general was unbelievably miserable...I look back now and cannot even imagine being in the position I was in - health/profession/etc. This time for reflection has been invaluable. I respect time much more than I did in the past. Being jobless does have its days, but I have confidence that with not giving up, one day I will be useful again.

Anonymous said...

are u employed now

Anonymous said...

man.i am in hell.tough times.this gave me some hope.

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